His strength is gone.
He lies, too weak to move, staring,
Side gently rising and falling
the only sign of life.
His spirit, strong and sad,
Asks me only
“Have I been a good boy?”
And the poignancy of all
That lies behind his thought
Ambushes my heart, and I am lost.
I rush to assure him
That his whole life was good
That it was I who failed him
Failed in faith
Failed in trust
Failed in love
And he falls silent.
I wait a while, and watch,
His breathing still steady,
And wonder how it is
That we in the world have so lost our faith
That a simple kitten, dying simply
(“I want to go home,” he said,
and showed me a vision
of him leaping in joy,
Effortless, free,
In some eternity beyond)
can bring so much sorrow
When instead perhaps we need to know
That for spirits, there is always tomorrow.